one evening

One evening an old cherokee told his grandson about a battle
That goes on inside all people. The battle is between two wolves. One is evil;
It is anger, envy, jealousy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt,
Resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority, abd ego. The other is good;
It is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence,
Empathy, generosity, truth, compassion, and fath. Which wolf wins?

The one you feed.

Has it been that long?

Well I my extended vacation, did finally end. Around the middle of september or something, after several trips to vancouver, and a couple to Winnipeg. I just wish the summer was hotter, as I don't think I can take next years summer off, but you never know. I was never into the swing of blogging so not sure, how often I will post. Or what I should be blogging about. My mom was just out here for 5 days or so, to celebrate my birthday. I am now 24, and no I don't feel any older.

You are as young as your faith, as old as your doubt; as young as your self-confidence, as old as your fear; as young as your hope, as old as your despair. ~Douglas MacArthur

Everything is a ok. I want to move again. But I know my mom told a friend that I never stick with anything for an extended period of time. So I can't move back yet, I need to stay here for another year or so. Which is a long period of time when you are young. I'm still on my extended vacation, even though I pop into the office to do things. There is so much work to do, that it seems insurmountable to me, and I really have no motivation to do it. But it is piling up, and I do need to do it. I feel like there is nothing for me in this town anyway, and inside I know, I am never going to make anywhere if stay. but I really wanna go, go somewhere new. But that's what I do, I'm a wanderer, but a person can't live a life just wandering can they? They have to have a real career that they stick with for their life don't they? They have to get married and have kids, don't they? They have to follow everyone else and have the life that all of their friends are leading, don't they? I don't do that.... do I? It's a quarter past 7, and I'm a little drunk.

“To be a star, you must shine your own light, follow your own path, and don't worry about the darkness, for that is when the stars shine brightest”

Light years later or so it seems, I find myself here. On this what seems like an endless vacation, I have found myself in Winnipeg, Manitoba if you care to look it up. Winnipeg is home. When I drive downtown late at night, and it is still warm enough to drive with the windows down, since all of the concrete is heated up from the day, bon iver playing on the stereo, the sights, smells, lights, and people just hit me. And I am home.... truly home, not just where I live currently. But where everything is. When you choose to live so far away (1600 kms) give or take, you think that nothing will change and everybody is on pause until you return. The only thing that hasn't changed is the memories, and most of the time that is ok. Have you been home lately?

not quite yet

So I knew my timeline was somewhere around the line of having to post again before it was a month a part. So I am a little early. Actually I had some free time and I was sitting in front of a computer waiting for something to finish so I figured why not. Well in 5 more days, I have been on my vacation for one month, and I have accomplished a whole heck of nothing. I went to vancouver for a week and half, and ate some pretty incedible food. I have been coaching the soccer team, tomorrow and for the next two weeks before I travel home for two weeks, I am going to work in a cabinet shop just for fun. So basically that is my plan, I wished at this time I had something funny or witty to say. But I just don't.... I need to make some money.

How to Walk With Confidence Through a Dark House

"Fill the house with things and people that deserve to be knocked over, upended, smashed flat, broken, spilled, cracked, punched, kicked in the face and cursed at. Turn off the lights. Walk."

hmmm

So I've spent all day today, organizing the office into the simplest manner possible. That anyone no matter who you are could find anything pertaining to anything that they are looking for. On Friday morning I start my 3 month vacation..../young persons crises/ Back to Vancouver in a couple of weeks, my brother in law is flying out to visit me there. Ppl better not be touching shit on my desk while I am gone for this extended period of time. I am going to sneak in from time to time to set up little booby traps that will tell me if someone has been using my desk. Although it could just end up being the cleaner.

Remember ...when friends were new, dreams were un-shattered and worries few...when recess was too short and life was too long...decisions came easily without need to belong...when storks delivered the babies and passions weren't so strong...friendships were un-broken...right was right, and wrong was wrong...when bad things didn't happen...when only skinned knees brought tears and the night light in it's socket quieted all our fears...when farewell meant just for summer and real friends didn't part...the fun went on forever and never left a broken heart.

I wish I was a little kid again when all I wanted for my birthday was cupcakes for my entire class & for everyone to sing happy birthday to me.. and money never mattered because when I was little.. --» [ whatever i wanted i always got ]

I’m just an immature little kid.
I sing when I walk down the street.
I still pee with the door open and dance to the sound of the shower.
My favorite holiday is Christmas & I stay up extra late. .
When it rains I run outside in the mud.
Growing up is for nerds. <3